it's a huge circle of frustration and desire. I am so fkn happy when i score, roxy's, oxy's, vic's, percs, methadone, any opiates
. I have tried man, withdrawel is brutal. I run miles, and spend thousands to avoid witdrawing. The fact is, I'm misserable and hate work and get so depressed without opiates. 5-7 yrs now. I have two jobs three kids, and use them to keep pushin on. I have had many injuries from jetski accidents, car accidents, etc. and bag right back on.