As a person who suffers from an actual diagnosis of HSV, I know exactly how you feel. However, don't let it get to
you. I hide from the world when I get a cold sore
. Mine are often stress induced. When you get these swellings and sensations, have you noticed anything that triggers them? Stress, lip trauma, a new chapstick, heat, cold, etc? Something as slight as a light bite to the lips or accidentally knocking yourself in the mouth (I'm a clutz, I do this all the time) can be a trigger.