Thanks, crazywillie. I appreciate it. Well... c'est la vie, eh? I did what I did, it had its pros & its cons. Que sera sera, as the wise ones will say. I do exaggerate the long-term effects: usually I'm fine, and I was doing really well, I just experience occasional downs & nostalgic feelings which make me bitter, such as the ones I described above. When I'm good, I'm great, and when I'm down, it stinks, but I shouldn't complain.