I´m just soo freaking out, whatever i do to get my mind off it i just can´t. I love my girlfriend so much and with all the
guild and HIV paranoia i feel so horrible. It´s amazing how we take life for granted and how stupid we are to keep looking for litle excitements just to get us out from the monotony of life, instead for appreciating what we have and charish it. Anyway i have one more week to get tested but against all the odds i just can´t stop thinking that ill be the first one.........