Thanks guys for all your replies,
I read them all, it's very comforting to know that there are people who understand,I've completely changed my social circle,meaning I barely have one,but that's ok right now,I've been hanging with friends who are clean,and I find that putting myself in uncomfortable situations,like meeting new people is actually helping a lot,I had a crazy work week,and constant battles in my head about using,but today I'm calm,going around to a friends hous