1/2 the top rack of dishwasher, then the other half
, then half
the lower rack, then the other half
. I followed advise and gave myself a break, didn't throw guilt at myself, and instead felt pride that I was doing something so good. This was not my fault, it is not ever anyone's fault.
I normally do yoga and chakra work, so I did that, listening to zen sounds.
It was hard, the anxiety monster was horrible, but I beat his ***. I killed him. he kept trying to get me, but mwahahahaha! he didn't.