death is a horrible thing to try to come to terms with,but even more heart breaking when it is someone so close toyou and so young,how long ago did this happen and how,my heart goes out to you,i could never imagine the loss you are feeling,have you seeked professional help,maybe speak to a bearevment councillor,please know that we are all here to help,and there are alot of people on this site who have experianced the loss of a loved one just like yourself and are always willing to lend an ear,so