I'm sorry you're in agony. I'm currently on 80 mg oxycontin twice a day, enough for
a terminally ill
patient, I'm a nurse, and I still have bad days, like now. Also Diazepam, sleeping pills, antidepressants, and ritalin, otherwise I'm more dead than alive. My team explained the "way" as a physical reaction to years of excessive stress. The problem is I want to work, deskjob, but in Belgium if you're ill, you can't work, study, nothing.