I have been exactly where you are! My pain doctor would not listen either. Every time I saw him I would complain that the morphine
made me feel "out of it" and
that I did not like it. He kept insisting that i take it and
then proceeded to up the dosage! Six weeks later I woke up in the ICU hallucinating and
suffering from kidney failure
! I don't remember how I got there, in fact, I don't remember the whole month of February(2010), and
now I suffer from short term memory loss.