Are you going to quit for
good, or try other means to get refills? If you don't quit for
good, get used to this feeling, it will happen everytime you run out, or you could spend all your family's money getting it on the street, or you could steal it. You could go on like that for years, and waste your entire life.
jump off now while it will still be easier.
he anxiety is the worst part of it in my opinion, but hang in there, it DOES go away. You can do this, for good!