While any of us can understand the fear you have for your husband and your fear of
being alone, it's a very unhealthy way to
live and with help, you CAN overcome
You don't want to make your husband give up his outings. They probably do him a world of good, both physically and mentally. Making him feel guilty about leaving you alone will just cause resentment and add even more stress to this situation, which I'm sure you don't want to do.