I am so VERY ANGRY that he has any sort
of control, in any manner, over me. I lecture myself, about
how stupid it is too be scared
to cross the bridge. i have to cross it at least once a week for my kids basketball games. I am afraid because I have my kids in the truck with me. My heart begins to pound out of my chest, the adrenaline pumps so fast and so hard that my legs and arms ache for 30 minutes after I get across. I am afraid I am going to pass out when I drive across it.