One thing you probably need to come to realize is that it may be that you will never be totally pain free but you should be able to manage your pain. It
took me a long
grasp that. I kept expecting that I'd get back to
normal. This forum helped me realize a number of things. One, that there is no shame in having to take medications, including narcotics, to manage my pain, and two, that pain management is just that: managing my pain.