I admire you sense of honor in wanting to
pay back what others might contribute to
help you get
treated. Just note it
the 'Things To Do When I Am Well' list, and even if it's a year or more, and even it's only a few dollars every now and then, then take solace and pride in the fact that you are helping others as you were helped. Make a mental note to self, and a resolution on New Year's Day that, when able, you will pay back what you can, when you can.