It was surreal and broke my
heart, left me with pangs of loss, sadness and guilt (although,
in reality, there was nothing else I could have/should have done earlier). I've since found some healing and comfort due to the acquisition of a small, cute and cuddly stuffed toy--fashioned in the shape of a bewhiskered kitty cat, wearing a neckerchief with "2014" on it. I've named him "Kitty" (see?