Don't really know why I'm posting this. The only issue on my mind right now is how to "end it" before the end comes and
takes me. I'm not trying to elicit sympathy from anyone and
have no realistic expectation of anything so this isn't even a cry for help. I know I'm dying and
that's about it. I haven't been formally diagnosed yet but the signs are too painfully obvious. and
I mean "painful" in all senses of the word. Here's a bit of background for what it's worth.