The desperation and willingness to get clean. I too am also an oxycontin addict
, and am about your age. I spent years on this drug
, and time and time again tried to stop only to relapse again. That cycle takes a toll on your soul, it really breaks you down. I really lost hope in myself for a while. I was using oxycontin, snorting and smoking it, waking up sick in WD, completely empty and miserable. Oxycontin fueled me, without it I couldn't even get out of bed. It sucked the life out of me.