The love we once had will never come back, although at times I hope and pray that if I am able to afford my own place, perhaps things would be good again. Several times I try to break it off, but find myself longing
for him again. I feel like a
victim and can't get out of this cycle! In the meantime, my husband tries his best to save our marriage only for the sake of the kids. I know I probably deserve all this pain, but I'm so sad, depressed, and confused.