to me the worst part is staying off them for maybe 5 days at the most (which feels like an eternity) and then right when i'm at the point when I start to feel normal again I go back to them!! Polo unfortunately no
one can go through it but you, no
one can stop it but you. Hang in there, the feelings won't last forever, read what the other insightful friends on this forum say. they too have been there. you are not alone. good luck my friend.