Anyway, it sounds like you're doing this from the strongest motivation possible - Love - and that will trump the fear
/anxiety/discomfort if you focus on it. You're going through the worst of
it now. So hold fast, my friend. If you love music put your headphones on to get the old endorphins firing & to distract yourself - Laughing also works.. Treat yourself well & keep your eye on the prize..You & your children deserve It!