If you feel so strongly that ssri is not for you, check out a drug called Provigil
. If you don't have high bp, your doctor will probably give it to you. Altho, it is WICKED EXPENSIVE! if your insurance doesn't cover. Good luck,,,,you've make it over the hump,,,,please don't turn back, the pills will only give you energy for a week or so and you'll be back to the same old same old. ps, OTC and rx sleep aids never did squat for me either.