sound like you are wrecked, this all seems familiar, when i had all my three kids, last child 11 months, went through 9 months of sheer hell like you , so so worn out and exhausted, depressed , post natal
depression, so week tired, didnt get any sleep during day as baby was awake, no family to help me , make sure you eat well and sleep when you can , can you get any one to take kids for a few days and go to a hotel and just sleep and eat, relax, i know how your feeling girl, as for the blood in