Things fell apart when I was feeling depressed, and the my medication level was raised. I was on
cymbalta 60mg a day, and was moved to
cymbalta 90mg a day. I believe that caused a huge increase in suicidal thoughts, and I began to abuse oxycontin, whenever I could afford it. It was the only the thing at the time that allowed me to escape the thoughts of suicide.
I finally admit my abuse of oxycontin, nobody in my family had suspected I was using such a hard drug.