I realized that I have spent most of my life blaming other people for things I either caused completely, or at the very least played
a part
in whatever the problem was at the time. For me and maybe just for me blaming others leads to resentment, which leads to getting high. I know there are doctors who write unnecessary scripts, I used to know a few of them. I apologize for being sarcastic and over the top, I wish you the best with your recovery.