take it from someone who's already been through addiction, and trauma from the addiction to benzos! i do recommend that you
see a therapist, and a phsychiatrist! remember, you CAN
NOT do this on your own, you need a suppor system, and proffesional help. don't ever think that seeing a phsychiatrist is something ONLY for "crazy people", it's not! i hope that you get everything under control; i feel your pain... believe me, i do!