It creates a disconnect between my body and my brain, so that I can be at a 9/10 and be semi-functional, walking around, and doing basic stuff because I
just don't care that I
'm in pain. I
it, because I
dislike being out of control, and I'm scared that I'll habituate to it. Tramadol's basically the only painkiller my neup will give me, so unless I want to go to the ER to get a shot of Demerol, I'm stuck with the tramadol.