i have for years had really ****** up thoughs, and they are all the
opposite of the person i am, whats worse is i have them when im most calm, for instance ill be listening to someone talk to me, and an impulse will shoot into my brain and say **** like your a fuckwit, ******* wanker or something that is the exact opposite of what im thinking, ill be talking to my girlfriend and really scary **** just shoots into my brain like violent thoughts, everything is the opposite of what i actually feel