m not turned away, that it works, and I can go back my life without
narcotics. i want to cook, garden, swim, ride,
and make love to my husband again. After 2 years in bed, I miss living.
This surgery better come through. My level of pain, even somewhat softened with narcotics, is unlivable, and I don't want to do it anymore. I don't want to live the rest of my life out being the boiling frog in the water.